2011

you're my only hope.

be nice! :))

superficially, deeply.

If she ever have the chance to live again
she wouldn't dare ask your name
for she will burn herself
in her own flame again

she did regret not
All pain in knots
she wont let happen twice
storm in her eyes

she tried to avoid.
not him, his ignorance
for not knowing she was there
every time. til the last chance.


If she ever have the chance to live again
she would be selfish.
for she will be happy for herself.
not for someone else again.

it's better not to know things sometimes.

it is awful.

ONE DAY, you will realize how much i was there for you when I'm gone.


to be continued....

spirit of christmas

that i cannot even feel.

how can you feel EMPTINESS?uughh.. makin' me insane!
i miss my grandfather so much.
i miss my life before when everything's FINANCIALLY fine.


Dear God. Dear Santa. can you consider my wish?
I wish my mom to have enough strength to handle our financial problems especially our bank debts. not only that. my future's at stake. can you please help me? it's just that SHE loves my grandfather so much that's why she had given all to make him survive. but unfortunately, he'd been gone physically for 2 years and all the burden hadn't left. Now, our house is full of legal demands from the banks that makes my mom worry to death. DEPRESSION AND WORRIES are killing us. Please guide us always. Still, we thank you for all the blessings you have given to us. After all, we are still lucky that we have something to eat everyday, wear what we want, books that we can read and study, computer that makes works a lot easier, and a house as our shelter.

Make us Stronger. I know you won't give us problems we cannot handle.

Despite of everything that's happening in my family. We'll try our best to celebrate your Son's birthday. my brother, my friend Jesus Christ. :) 21 days are left.

enough said.


-cyn